You didnt have to make it so obvious.

Just when i thought you might need some help, you turned out to be a total bitch.

You make it so obvious that you're ignoring me. Arent you, Captain Obvious?

You just love to take people for granted. It didnt surprised me that you didnt fit in.
It's best for you if you can stand on your own feet now.

'Cause from now on, we're not good.

Its over! Something that happened and exist for more than a decade is over.

I couldnt sound more relieved than now.

You could go on pretending that i wasnt there.

It doesnt matter anymore to me.

I dont care! XDXD

I'm scared!!!

Applics exam later... and i'm kinda blank right now.
I got study i swear...
Just not going in my head...LOL

Having cold war at home.
I really hate you for being so bitchy and unfair.
You know how much i wish that i'm living on my own now.
Have a good life and dont need to depend on you.
You've no idea how much i hated you and will hate you!

Just dont like you

Just needed you

I'm sorry for being a child.

Thinking, acting and talking like one.

Insecurity is just eating me up bit by bit.

I wish i could read your mind. I wish i could know what are you thinking all the time.

Btw, i'm not crazy, ok? I dont have mental illness. Just unstable that's all.

PS - Just so to let you know, you may think i'm being stupid, i will be there if you neeeded me.

A bit like you.

For all the joy you brought to my life

I hope it will last.

I'm now blogging from college library.

What's the point of paying if i'm not going to use it isnt it?

Well, i just finished my accounts open book test. I think it's easy. But will the result be above 90 i'm not sure lar. Sorry if i disappoint you.

Like i said, i hope it last

"You can make my dreams come true"

Hope

PS - Thank you. I appreciate it.

you're my strength when i'm weak

you're my voice when i could not speak

you're my eyes when i could not see

Urgh...

How much worse can my day be with the most stupid net?
Keep on disconnect at this kind of time.
Disconnect when i need it most.


So what i did it?
You didnt care.
You dont seem to anyway.

I need help!

I made a fool out of myself

Today is just the second day and I’m already like a walking zombie. I’m under the weather now. I’m down with cough, flu, and sore throat. Next thing I will be having fever. Mom asked me to take medicine. She even put it right in front of me. I’m shocked actually because she hardly does that for me. But once she turns her back away from me, I stared at the pills. I didn’t know what to do. Suddenly I just grab the pills and throw it out of the window. At that point of time, my mind was totally blank. I just realize I didn’t want to get better. I just want to be too sick to not bother what’s happening out there. You may say I’m stupid. Say I’m silly. Say I’m out of my mind. But I just can’t help it.

Trust me when u say that statement, I felt hope. I felt a little happy. I was hoping you would continue but u didn’t. I guess u just realize that you said something that you don’t intend to say. I didn’t know what to do. I tried my best. But you’re just as cold as you seem.

To be honest, a quarter of me didn’t want to be there yesterday. I didn’t want to hear you say things that will hurt me deeper. But the remaining of me wants to be there for you. I know I should not have kept ranting everything about me. I know you’re equally upset and hurt as me. At that time, I was thinking if I wasn’t there, who would be there? Who would be there to comfort you? Who would be there to keep you accompanied and not to let u be lonely? Who would make a fool of themselves just to make u feel better? I really hope what I did yesterday at least make u feel a little better.

I was sitting in the bathroom with my clothes on thinking with the water flowing down me just now. When I walk out of the room, I was wet from head to toe. My parents thought that a pipe burst in the bathroom. That really makes my sis laugh her ass off. I thought of many things that happen in my life. I even remember the last time I did it. I looked for the scar but I can’t find it. It was so long ago that I even forget which wrist was it. The right? Or the left? I don’t remember anymore.




I can’t concentrate anymore. I’m losing all my focus. I’m losing myself.
I just needed it to distract me from the pain I’m having now. I’m sorry.

Oh god, what have I done to my life?


PS – For God’s sake, take good care of yourself.

不要你离开 距离隔不开

“I’ll be the shoulder when u cry.”

Aprilfool!

Today was really a rough and HEARTBREAKING day.

I skipped Maths class though I got topic test next Monday but whatever lar… my emotions was kind of unstable.

Uhm… where should I start? LoL

Well, I didn’t got tricked by anyone but I did receive bad news (and I wasn’t a prank apparently)

To the readers out there, please do not start a conversation with “I think we need to talk.”

Because everything followed by it is always, ALWAYS bad news. It makes people worry a lot even before you break the news to them.

I shouldn’t have teased my friend because it seems to backfire on me now. I wish I could tell u more clearly how sure I am about it. I do not need to lie down on my bed and think about it over and over again. But u didn’t seem to be listening or understand what I am saying because you were searching for an answer that I don’t have.

I wish you could realize how heartbroken I am now. It was easy for you to say “I must clam down, I must be strong.” The decision was made by you to relieve the burden on you.

放手？不放手？

我选择了不放手，继续那么执着

但是放不放已经不是由我决定了

我觉得心很痛

心… 好像被刀捅了许多次

流着很多血

您有办法救救我吗？

为什么是他?不是已经说好要放弃了吗？

You make me want to take my life away again.

You make me want to feel the cold, rusty blade cutting through my skin and get to the vein.

You make me feel helpless.

PS – If you wanted to be alone, you could have told me. Don’t lie to me.

“I’m not the one you think of anymore.”

您，开心了吗？