I was just the fool.

Just now i went back to my ex high school for carnival day. Well,i would say it feels different to go back as an outsider. I mean last time i took care and set up the stalls. But now,all i had to do is walk around and find way to spend my coupons. Maybe because of time constrain and best friend factor, i find the carnival boring to the extend i dont know how to spend my coupons. LOL

Dont have to blame urself for some failures. U should know and i know that u know, all these arent just ur fault. I would say it's everybody's fault. Dont beat up urself just because of some comment made by people who dont know u. U tried ur best. In fact, u did more than ur part. Other people may not see or give u credit for what u have done. But when all these are successful,the person that should be the happiest is none other than u.
So dont mind what people say or blame u about. Let them be. Dont shed ur tears for such people. Not worth it.
Btw,ur eyes and face are red. Stop asking me that question already. T.T

PS - I'm helpless. I would be happy to even get over a day. I know u wont talk about it with me. I know.

I dont think "im sry too" meant anything.
It cant stop the pain. It cant do anything.

Sometimes...

Sometimes we ought to look back and take a look how many people we have hurt along the way.
How many people who love and care about us were hurt by our stupid actions or our razor tongue?
It wasnt easy to do what i'm doing now.
I just couldnt imagine that to you,i'm the same like the others. But i'm not.
In fact, you're damn right about something. U dont have to give a damn about what people think. U only have to listen to ur own heart.
My heart said u're damn not worth the pain but my mind said u cant be wiped out clean. Pathetic,isnt it?

We are not weak just because we broke down and cried.
Do not hold back. Let those tears flow like waterfall.
We will feel better that way.

PS - Yea, kristin wants to have painkiller for her emotions too.

Today is the 3rd. LOL
wtf.it wasnt supposed to be like that. WTF

Accounts - 79/100
I could have done better. But wat can i expect? I was too moody to study for it.
I'm disappointed.

I screwed up my EE

Well, like i said i screwed up my mid term exam.
So far i took back 3 papers.

Computer science - 41.5/100
Calculus - 106/180
Maths - 135.5/180

I expected comp science 2 b bad because i didnt really study. Plus i walked out the exam hall earlier by 1 hr.But i didnt expect it 2 turn out tht bad. My mum wil surely kill me when she sees the letter from college. Urgh...
Hope 2ml's accts n english wont b tht bad.
I'm so worried.

Anyways,yesterday i watched grey's anatomy til 3.30 am. Then I set 2 alarm clocks so that i can wake up at 8. But i just kept snoozing them til 10am. Wth. I almost threw my phone down the floor 'cause it's damn annoying.
I guess the clock in my body is upside down now. I feel like an owl during the night. N i look like a panda during the day. Wth

PS - 2ml is supposed 2 b a year n 3 months. Lol...

I dont know what to say anymore.
You...totally crushed everything.
I'm speechless.
I...am tired of all these craps.
You just proved ur point.
I'm only remembered when you need help.

PS - It hurts to see that you're okay.