It wasnt supposed to be like that

I was supposed to wipe you clean out of my life.
The way you say things was totally way overboard.
But i didnt know how the hot tempered me swallowed it all down.
I was supposed to get angry and hate you.
For all the words that you threw on me left me with no dignity.

I was supposed to erase every memories that i had with you whether the good or bad ones because it doesnt matter to you. You probably couldnt think of any good ones anyway.Because all you could think of are the bad ones which i'm not that fond of remembering them.

I do hope i will get involve in an accident. Wait! Before you get mad, i want to say that i'm not suicidal. I dont want to die at all. I just want to lose part of my memories. The bitter ones.

PS - I didnt want all this to be like that. But you dont care anyway. So whatever.XD

Thanks. At least i felt that u cared this time.
I must hav sound pretty stupid last night.
I cant believe i said all that.
My god...it's so embarassing!

PS - My presence is optional i guess. You just dont have any idea how all these stuffs are affecting me.

You held the key to my heart
I open up once and i guess that's enough
I really never expect to hear that from you
I swallowed whatever you said.
And left myself with no dignity.

Have a nice day everybody. :)

Something that I find it's quite true...

We make people who love and care about us cry.
We left them heartbroken and acted as if we cant be bothered.
But we cry for people who dont love and care about us.
Even so,we always still want to convince ourselves that there's always a ray of hope.We hoped one day they will realise what they'd missed.We hoped one day they will regret and wished that they can turn back the time to the times when there's someone who truly cares for them.

It's funny and at the same time irony,isnt it?
But hey,this is what we called as life.

PS - At the end of the day,it is the people whom we hurt whether intentionally or not will be there for us when we breakdown,when we're experiencing the lowest moments of our life.'Cause they're the one who love us for who we are.

So,love the people who love you.

I just want things 2 b the way it was.
I dont want it to change.

PS - Im bloggin use my phone!! XDXD

由始至终我并不是任何人
或许我应该说你不再想要听我说的话

我知道我不重要了

你确定我们还可以像以前那样吗？

我真的不知道该怎么做
你也不想要跟我说

我不知道啦

New phone!!

Finally, i've got my new phone!!
My holiday will never be the same anymore! XDXD

My new baby

N85

与其一味怀念失去的东西，不如好好珍惜剩下的事物
不要让关心你的人担心了

Well, i didnt really do anything today because i was sleeping from 2 plus to 6pm
What to do? I slept at 4am yesterday... i wanted to stay up till next morning but i have no idea why i found myself lying on the bed this morning.
Anyways, my holiday is such a waste...
I couldnt hang out with any of my friends because they are either having class or exam
So all i do at home is sleep, watch movie and eat.
Which really sucks...
Haiz....
I WANT TO GO OUT VERY BADLY!!!!! T.T

家是每一个人的避风港
家人本来就应该是我们最要好的朋友
我们可以在家人的面前露出我们最懦弱的一面
但我最要好的朋友不是我的家人
没错，我是可以在他们面前哭
但我从来都不告诉他们我的心事
因为有你听我说心事，在我哭的时候安抚我
所以你应该才是我最要好的朋友吧

我知道你心里很不好受
也知道你觉得自己是个笑话
但是，我希望你知道我并没有这样想
你也不应该这样想
喜欢本来就是一种特殊的感觉
来了就躲不了
你不需要太在乎别人会怎么想
只要自己拿得起放得下就好了
跌倒是会很痛啦
但伤口会痊愈的

我会协助你
记得我说过当你可以坦白说出来，那就代表你已经开始放手了
加油咯


我真的做不到啦
要我怎么坦白？
是我被打到瘫痪，翻肚子而且看到白眼球的那个“瘫白”吗？
真伤脑劲噢...

Aiyo...holiday wanna sleep longer also cannot.
Early in the morning kena sepak wake up d.
Damn kesian.
I'm currently addicted to the game Left4Dead.
Which is really not for faint hearted.
It almost gave me a heart attack when i first played.


*shrug* I'm speechless

I dont know what the hell is wrong with me.
I was cycling yesterday and then i dont know wat am i doing.
i seem to be always on the wrong side of the road.
Rushed to turn into a corner that has a car coming.
Almost get knocked down because i'm trying to cross the road?
I wonder is that my problem or the driver's problem?
I mean they dont put signal and when u try to turn they horn u and put their signal.
What the hell?!

And what the hell my mom is trying to do to me?
I've been surviving almost on liquid these few days.
I just didnt want to eat and she have to keep asking why.
And forced me to eat the porridge and mcd.
Wth?
I feel like vomitting now.
Maybe i'm starting to hate food now. Good for me isnt it?


我知道自己不应该这样
却偏偏要这样
不要再这样敷衍我了
可以吗？

Now i know what all of you think.
I didnt know i am jerk.

I get it now.

Seriously, how else you wanna treat me?

I dont need it either.

Have u think about how i would feel?
About the pain i'm feeling now?
All u would say is time will cure.
But how long?
A month? A year? Now?
I'm already half dead.
I know. It's all my fault.
Can u hear my heart's breaking into pieces?
Even other people can hear it, why cant u?
Are u just trying to act you're deaf or u just couldnt care less?
Would u care to do the jigsaw puzzle for me?

i really dont want this.

it's hard to be alone.

where nobody can see or hear you.

u.me.me.u.

there's miracle when u believe.

Every moment i spent with you is a moment I treasure

I dont want to close my eyes

I dont want to fall asleep

'Cause i'd miss you

PS - Whether you believe it or not, i wouldnt do that again. I know you dont believe... but that's all i can say. It's up to you to believe or not.

Everything's upside down

Who was there for me when i'm crying?

I dont want to be emo.

I feel weak and vulnerable.

I feel sick!

Where are you?

Why do u act like how i imagined you wouldn't be?

This is not the end right?

Dont go away, i will be afraid.

Life would be diffeerent without you.

It's not what you think it is...

I'm not abandoning my blog. It's just that i feel there's nothing to blog about. Even i have, my mind become empty when i sit infront of the comp.

Mid year exam is 1 week from now. And i havent started a single thing. :(
Calculus is totally a killer.

I miss high school. Miss high school holidays. At least they're long enough and at the right time. Now in college, i have holi when other people's having school. And people's having holi now when i'm suffering in college. Hate it.

Things are getting rough lately. And i dont know why.

I miss you