Sunday, July 26, 2009

人一旦得到某样东西就会越来越贪心吗?
得到了珍珠就会要金条
得到了金条就会要钻石
能不能有一个人是不会改变不会变贪心?


因为认真所以受伤
我始终还是无法放弃
不管你说的话有多难听,我还是吞下去了

其实我并不知道自己在期待什么
也不知道自己希望什么
也许我只是想要默默陪在你身边
但是自己却很不满足
想要更多更多

想要你关心
想要你担心
想要你嫉妒
想要你陪在我身边
永永远远
不再改变

我们的美好回忆你不记得了吗?

我们之间许下的承诺你忘了吗?

每当自己说服自己是时候放弃了
我就会临时退缩
只因为自己不够坚强
没有勇气面对心里所承受的痛
没有勇气放开

Please have some mercy in me.
For i cant bear the pain any longer.


我承认我是个胆小鬼
I feel lonely. Can u accompany me?

PS - RIP, Yasmin Ahmad.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

I miss you badly.
What does it take to make everything to be the way it was before?
What can i do to be happy again?

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Fairytales are just for kid. It's just a lie.
It always start with once upon a time and ends with happily ever after.
How i wish that in real life we can end our story with happily ever after too.

I just want to feel the way i feel when i'm with u.

PS - I dont want all these to be just a dream. I dont want 2 open my eyes and lose them all.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

This is so stupid

What's the point of spending so much money on PPSMI since they're gona make all students to study maths and sciences in BM anyway? Don't u think that the education ministry is making a huge mistake? Instead of moving forward,we are now moving backwards.
Students have been studying maths and sciences in english for a long time. They are used to it already. Now, they have to learn in BM? Wth. Let's assume that they can do it,they can adapt to the changes. What about after form 5? When they enter college or university, everything will be in english. What happens then? All students study at government university? Like universiti malaya?
Because of learning maths and sciences in english,our english became better and more powerful. Now that it will be reverted back to BM, i believe the only chance to empower our english language skills is during english class.
Seriously this decision is very stupid. I know that we have to consider the students in the rural area. And i wont say screw them. I believe there's always a way to solve the rural area problem.
I know BM is our national language. No offence,but how often will we use it in future? Let's say we are going to work in UK, we are not going to use BM there,right? We will be using the global language, a language where the whole world would understand.
We wouldnt want a scenario where a malaysian speaks with a very broken english to the whites. It's so embarrassing.

PS - I hope that the government wil change their mind. Because developed countries dont move backwards.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

I was just the fool.
Just now i went back to my ex high school for carnival day. Well,i would say it feels different to go back as an outsider. I mean last time i took care and set up the stalls. But now,all i had to do is walk around and find way to spend my coupons. Maybe because of time constrain and best friend factor, i find the carnival boring to the extend i dont know how to spend my coupons. LOL

Dont have to blame urself for some failures. U should know and i know that u know, all these arent just ur fault. I would say it's everybody's fault. Dont beat up urself just because of some comment made by people who dont know u. U tried ur best. In fact, u did more than ur part. Other people may not see or give u credit for what u have done. But when all these are successful,the person that should be the happiest is none other than u.
So dont mind what people say or blame u about. Let them be. Dont shed ur tears for such people. Not worth it.
Btw,ur eyes and face are red. Stop asking me that question already. T.T

PS - I'm helpless. I would be happy to even get over a day. I know u wont talk about it with me. I know.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

I dont think "im sry too" meant anything.
It cant stop the pain. It cant do anything.

Sometimes...

Sometimes we ought to look back and take a look how many people we have hurt along the way.
How many people who love and care about us were hurt by our stupid actions or our razor tongue?
It wasnt easy to do what i'm doing now.
I just couldnt imagine that to you,i'm the same like the others. But i'm not.
In fact, you're damn right about something. U dont have to give a damn about what people think. U only have to listen to ur own heart.
My heart said u're damn not worth the pain but my mind said u cant be wiped out clean. Pathetic,isnt it?

We are not weak just because we broke down and cried.
Do not hold back. Let those tears flow like waterfall.
We will feel better that way.

PS - Yea, kristin wants to have painkiller for her emotions too.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Today is the 3rd. LOL
wtf.it wasnt supposed to be like that. WTF

Accounts - 79/100
I could have done better. But wat can i expect? I was too moody to study for it.

I'm disappointed.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

I screwed up my EE

Well, like i said i screwed up my mid term exam.
So far i took back 3 papers.

Computer science - 41.5/100
Calculus - 106/180
Maths - 135.5/180

I expected comp science 2 b bad because i didnt really study. Plus i walked out the exam hall earlier by 1 hr.But i didnt expect it 2 turn out tht bad. My mum wil surely kill me when she sees the letter from college. Urgh...
Hope 2ml's accts n english wont b tht bad.
I'm so worried.

Anyways,yesterday i watched grey's anatomy til 3.30 am. Then I set 2 alarm clocks so that i can wake up at 8. But i just kept snoozing them til 10am. Wth. I almost threw my phone down the floor 'cause it's damn annoying.
I guess the clock in my body is upside down now. I feel like an owl during the night. N i look like a panda during the day. Wth

PS - 2ml is supposed 2 b a year n 3 months. Lol...

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

I dont know what to say anymore.
You...totally crushed everything.
I'm speechless.
I...am tired of all these craps.
You just proved ur point.
I'm only remembered when you need help.

PS - It hurts to see that you're okay.